Mesa Building Training Session 1

Rememberance, Guidance and Enlightment

In my first training session of building my mesa bundle, my first task was to collect objects from nature, build a circular sand painting with them, and place my three personal mesa stones in it. The sand painting was to sit and cook over the weekend.

The second task was to pick three stones from the sand painting and blow three issues that I wanted to get rid of into three different stones. The first issue was my fear of being social and being in the midst of many persons' energy fields.  The second issue was my boredom with living and finding life just not worth the trouble of living.  The third issue was my despair and willingness to easily and quickly give up on things when life got tough. Along with the blowing of the issues into the stones came an individual healing and activation of each stone as a power stone, or khuya.

When I first started this process, the first stone's shape that I blew fear of people into reminded me of a barge in the bayou.  This stone is actually from a Glacier National Park creek.  After the weekend training, this stone now reminds me of a very large white-water raft that can safely hold many people in the wild, cold, exhilarating, rushing rivers. I now see how fun being with people can be and the fear is just of the unknown path ahead that we travel together. It is not bad or good.  It just is and it's more fun traveling together.

The second dark stone represented a dark, stagnant, lifeless lake when the session started.  Now it reminds me of a sailboat that can go any where at any time.  It can float above the mundane.

The third stone is from the Natchez Trace and represented the red, muddy, slow, and heavy Mississippi River with all its despair and blues of the past.  That little stone took in all my grief and despair as hucha which is heavy, dense, incompatiable energies.  Over the weekend, it cooked and processed all that hucha and made fertilizer--very rich fertilizer that is the fuel that my body has used to shoot me right up into the high energies of happy.  I have for the most part stayed in comfortable balance since.

This sand painting process was an amazing process that revealed many things to me.  When I started building the circle, I noticed an ant pile outside of the circle and a bumblebee settled on the grass on the other side of circle, also outside of it.  I then thought of my circle as my universe with other living universes outside of it.  So, my circular border is thin because I wanted fluidity and flexibility of movement between the universes.

There is a heart shape stone in the center of the circle that has a big smiley face on it with many wounds underneath it.  The underneath part of this stone is shaped like a cone and ends in a point like a piece of cut gemstone.  It has real depth and penetrates into the earth with its root.  It is the core and is my heart that holds all with love and compassion.  I surrounded that stone with three living plant parts, one purple flower like my mother used to grow and two brilliantly colored red and yellow leaves.  These represented my mother, my father, and my wonderful daughter who have all passed before me.  I thought that the living plant parts would have wilted and completely dried up by the end of the weekend, but at the end of the weekend, my vision of this told me that they are still supporting me, will always be strongly connected to me and will always guide me in our endeavors.

Near my Natchez south stone, I placed a long thick piece of tree bark that reminded me of the Acadians and their struggle in this swampland. I called this piece Acadian Driftwood.  After three days, this piece reminded me of how they have never given up.  They just keep fertilizing and re-growing without thinking too long about the tough times.  Danse every day!!

I placed a large, heavy red rock from my courtyard in the west side because it lookedstrong enough to protect my medicine wheel and sacred space.  I guess it has jaguar energy in it. There are a few more Glacier stones around the NW side.  They provide healing and comfort like a hot stone massage.

My circle is a wheel within a wheel within a wheel. In the middle wheel is a living green weed vine that connects the southern Acadian Driftwood, the western protective rock, and northern comfort stones.  These are connected to the inner circle which on the east side has a forked branch.  This forked branch brings energies from the outer universes into and down to the center of my universe of Mother Earth, Pachamama, like an interstate highway.  We are all connected. We are all one tribe.